Lucifer (Morning Star) by Paul Fryer
(Installation in the Holy Church in Marylebone, 2008. Anodised aluminium, silicon rubber cord, wax work figure, feathers/aluminium, concrete.)
Thoughts, interests, and likes from a Game Design student.
Ok, so i had such a miss-mash of different dreams last night its gonna be interesting to see if i can remember them… and i have no clue how all of these different thoughts came into my head all in one night, but it was definitely a fun night!
Scene 1: Train Station
I am at a train station with my parents and sister and we are all waiting for a train. The train station is in the middle of a forest though, so that was kind of weird. it is completely surrounded by trees and stuff. I hear the train and get ready to get on, i think to go to Marq’s apartment in the next dream.
Scene 2: Mar’s apartment
Me and a whole bunch of my friends are at Mar’s for a party he is having. we are all having a good time and we all end up in his room (which has two beds now instead of the normal 1). i am aging on one of the beds with Cal and we start to cuddle. we just cuddle for a really long time and then i try and start to kiss him but he says he doesn’t wanna kiss, just to cuddle, thats it.
Scene 3: Evergreen High School (but different layout, naturally)
I am at the school and need to go to the bathroom. i \go into a stall and Spe. Kel. is in the one next to me. I sit down to go to the bathroom when he decides to look under the stall to watch me go to the bathroom. I’m like WTF, get out of here! so i start to push his head back under the stall cause i don’t want him watching me. as i am pushing his head back, the stall door opens and someone’s mom and a cop are standing there and see me pushing his head, assuming I’m doing something naughty with him in the bathroom. i try and tell them “no no, he was the one, i was trying to get him away!” and i look over and the wall between the stalls is now like a chain link fence and is see-through. the cop tells me I’m going to be arrested for being with a minor. I get scared, put on my pants, and book it out of the bathroom.
I start running all over the school to find somewhere to get away. i go down this hallway and at the end of it is these giant wooden doors with lattice on both sides and you can see through the lattice into the room. the doors are kind of crooked and broken down. i decide to look in there to see what it is and when i look in a see all these creepy ass children saying something lilke “join us” or “come in” or something like that. I’m like, hell no! and continue down the hallway. but in the hallway down to the right of this room, there are all these doll houses that are all bright, happy colors, mainly pinks. It really creeps me out and i walk very slowly through them and i realize that this must be where the creepy children live. i find that this hallway is a dead end when i get all the way to the back of the doll houses. i go back to the creepy children room and walk in. The children explain to me that this is a room for those who are in between life and death. they will help me get away. i ask if i am dead or a live and they say I’m in between. i hear the cop and mom coming so i run to the right side of the room and one of the children jumps out of his seat so i can hide under the table. i get under the table just as i see the cop bursting in through the wooden doors, breaking them down. I am scared shitless and cover my head with my arms shaking. Then i hear them getting closer to me, they pick me up by my collar as i am still covering my eyes and…
Scene 4: My front room
(just this section) idk where the fuck this shit came from, NSFW
I am in my front room watching some awards show and reading some kind of book as well. My mom decides to go to bed and I’m still out in the front room alone watching tv. i want to masturbate so i go to some kind of menu on my tv where i can watch specific people on the show talk shirtless and so i choose the host of survivor (?). i balance myself between two footrests so I’m in the air and get ready to masturbate but i can’t quite get the right position.
Scene 5: Streetcar stop on 23rd
I am sitting at the stop waiting for the streetcar with the guy i like. we are just talking and I tell him that one of my friend’s thinks that its totally awesome that he works at Chipotle. i realize that makes it obvious i was talking about him to my friends so i quickly say “that’s just what i thought about, idk why” trying to cover up the fact i was talking about him to my friends.
Finally, a new dream! its a little weird though… like, really fucked up… well here we go!
Scene: My house
So its morning and i am headed out the door to go to school. my dad is here and i say bye and start walking to the bus stop. about half-way there I’m like “wait a minute, i have a car, duh, i haven’t taken the bus for 2 months. so i walk back to my house. when i get home, my dad is washing the cars. My car is gone so I’m like “where is my car?” he informs me that my mom took my car. so i say i don’t wanna drive the samurai so I’m gonna take my grandma’s car, which is at my house for some odd reason. But he says he needs to take it later so i can’t take it. therefore, i don’t have a car. so i head back to the bus stop.
Scene: On the bus
I’m on the bus and this guy gets on and sits next to me. he is kinda cute, but i don’t think much of it. then he asks me “you wanna get out of here? wanna go somewhere?” i say “no, i can’t… wanna do it here?” he says sure, so i reach over in his pants, but then a little girl walks up to us on the bus and starts talking to us, so we aren’t able to do anything.
Scene: in a car
So now i am in some family’s car with the guy that was trying to hook-up with me earlier. i think it may have been his family. we pull into this shopping complex and i see a gamestop and say i wanna go. there is a manicure place right next door and the girls all say they wanna go get their nails done, so we park and walk up to the stores. i keep walking and walk right into the manicure place not thinking about it, i say sorry and walk back out. i see the guy and the rest of his family headed upstairs to go to gamestop, but I’m thinking “its right here next door, where are you headed?” I’m like, whatever and head to the gamestop that is next door.
Inside the gamestop, its is really dark. the walls are all black and its filled wall to wall with used games, nothing new. I’m thinking “oh, this must be where they keep all the used games and the new ones are upstairs. There is also a hole in the wall like they have at banks where you can put in your used games and they go up to this like, booth thing where the employees watch over everyone from above. i think this is all kind of weird and out of place, but i know its gamestop so i trust it. i start to look around and find in a little box to my right a collection with Final Fantasy 1-10 on sale. I’m super excited but don’t have the money.
i keep looking around, and then suddenly its really late and they close up and they lock me inside. no one else is there and I’m stuck there, then all of the sudden I’m shoved through the game-trading hole and end up in this giant warehouse looking area, very reminiscent of the hell that Freddy is in from Nightmare on Elm Street. I stand there really scared and looking around for a way out, but then I’m taken to a dark room that is like a jail cell or something with another guy in there. i walk up to him and he grabs me and says “guess what i have?!” and starts undressing. i assume he means an STD and he is trying to force me to have sex with him so i get it, but then i realize he is talking about his HUGE penis. apparently he is supposed to impale me on it and kill me. for some reason though, he takes mercy on me and fake kills me instead. when the bad guys come to collect me i run out and they take the guy and start to shove him into a furnace to kill him for not doing his job.
I run around in this giant warehouse and its like a huge maze. i find this section that looks like a hospital and i hide in one of the little “rooms” behind a divider. but then these like, zombies with creepy doll faces start to look for me. They are actually very reminiscent of Cie’th from Final Fantasy XIII. One of them finds me hiding and tells all the zombies where i am. then little rats with the same faces as the zombies surround me.
the zombies take me to a conveyor belt at the front of this giant warehouse. the employees talk to me about something and say their going to kill me. then more zombies come out from behind me on the conveyor belt to kill me. but then i start to grab the rats and rip their heads off to scare them. i kill about 5 of them and then the rats run away. i then find a large double-edged sword and start to sever the zombies heads, but there are just too many. then some guy (it might be the giant penis guy, it could be the guy from the bus, I’m not quite sure who it was) and distracts them all so i can escape. i run out of the warehouse and escape.
When i get back him i am scared shitless and go to bed to try and relieve my mind. i then wake up in the middle of the night to my grandma making really weird noises in the front room. i go out to check on her, but she looks different. she kind have a blue/purplish look to her. she kind of looks like she is from The Edge of Glory music video, but rotting. she starts to look at me weird and goes to attack me. i get out of the way and she runs back to the laundry room and stops there. i go after her and tell her she isn’t herself, she needs to relax. But she then slowly turns around and starts to attack me again. we fight a little bit then i throw her into the front room. she lands on the couch and i think i might have killed her by impaling her on the sword i found at the warehouse… idk for sure if i killed her or not though. then this overload guy, who kind of reminds me of Caius from Final Fantasy XIII-2, appears in my kitchen and tells me she has been possessed and i won’t be getting her back. he says that he will kill me somehow.
Scene: The Art Institute
Im sitting there in class, pretty bored. Class ends and me and my friends head downstairs in the elevator laughing, having fun, and then i remember i need to go pay tuition. i wwalk up to the front desk (which now looks like a hotel front desk) and ask where i can do that. they say “go up to the red zone and head back and you’ll see the desk” i say “ok” and tell my friends i need to go do that. they say that they are gonna go with me. so we all head up the escalator (cause Ai has one of those now?) and we see the library at the top. i say “oh!! so this is where the library is!” we look around for a little bit, then i head off to the left to go where i need to go and….. all goes black.
I wake up on what i assume is an operating table with these two giant playing cards above my head, reminding me a lot of Alice in Wonderland, expecting the Mad Hatter to be there. i am really scared and some creepy guy (i think its Hugo Strange from Batman: Arkham City) is hovering over me smiling with some sort of operating instrument.